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Although we received some great news this evening, which I will not be sharing because it is not my news, Nick and I also received some discouraging news tonight as well.  As luck would have it, I started a new cycle tonight, I won’t give all of you readers the exact time, though I know you are dying to know it.  What this means is the IUI was a big FAIL.  This does not comes as a huge shock to us; after all, statistically speaking, we are not the luckiest of couples (except in the cases of being awesome and finding each other.)  Nonetheless, we may have really hoped the first round of meds would work and the first IUI would work, but we realized this was a long shot.  I’m not going to lie; it has been a rough couple of days in our house.  I knew this was coming–and tonight was merely a confirmation.  We are getting by, and obviously we are hoping for brighter days in the near future.

Here are the upsides of this new discovery:

1. I was able to drink two glasses of wine with dinner tonight without guilt
2. This means my cycle was exactly 28 days long–this has not been the case for me for at least a year.  Hopefully, this means the meds are working.
3. I made it through the first month of meds without killing or hurting any innocent bystanders

I am supposed to schedule an appointment with my doctor on my first day of my cycle, so I’ll try to see him tomorrow of Wednesday.  If all goes well, he will put me back on the meds for the second time, and we’ll schedule another IUI. (I’m hoping this one is less painful and comes with less surprises.)  Of course, we’ll be praying that this one works–turns out our health insurance doesn’t cover potential fertility issues, and IUI isn’t as cheap as regular conception methods: ie. a bottle of Boone’s Farm Flavored Wine and a cheap wrist corsage does not make a baby in this family.  On an unrelated  feminist note–it figures that the state health plan would cover limp-noodle meds but not faulty ovary meds–dodgy, male chauvinists.

If you are available for a quick prayer or good thought sometime tomorrow or Wednesday, send one out for me.  he doctor has to do an ultrasound to make sure the medication has not made me grow any Uterine cysts.  We are hoping all is clear, and my bllod work has come back ok.  If both check out, I’ll be able to use the same drugs again this month.  If not, we’ll have to find another course of action.  Let’s hope we can stick wit this one.

Not to worry friends.  We are doing okay.  I didn’t really expect to be this upset about things not working out this month, so it hit me hard when I became crazy, unexpected, uncontrollable crier.  (If you are wondering–yes, those new meds have made me more emotional than ever.)  Luckily, my Nicky is better to me than most people know–he is tremendously supportive and sweet regardess of my huge drug induced mood swings.  Of course, all of this is hard, but I think we are growing  closer through this process, so there’s another upside.  Additionally, we have so many people hoping and praying for us that I really feel quite blessed.  I’ll send out the side note that there is no way I’d be in the spirits to send this blog if my BFF was not the best possible girl in the world.  No matter the circumstance, she can always make me laugh my ass off.

Still hoping–

P.S. If there are typos in the blog try not to hold it against me.  I’m emotional and hormonal

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